After the interlude

Hey, it’s been a while since my last post, and I am very sorry about that. I have been concentrating VERY hard on my Diploma assignments and I’m pleased to say it paid off! I have FINALLY finished my course (after a year, I managed to do the whole course in just under 2 weeks xD) and I got a B in every single essay! so now, I have an EDI level 3 diploma in Child Psychology, which is going to be great for future job prospects and hopefully I’ll be able to go on and do a degree in child behaviour therepy!

Baby steps though, there’s much I wish to do with my life 😀

I’ve had quite a good week so far, been over to Rose’s (watch out for another post re: the ongoing frustrations with my head in regards to this) gotten some really nice mail, including a £100 discount off our next gas/leccy bill, 20% off the ELC for Naomi’s birthday/christmas presents, gotten my xbox opener tool, the thermal paste and hopefully my Torx screwdriver set will arrive in the post tomorrow or thursday so that I can finally fix our RROD and get to modding the casing and installing new whisper fans 😀 I’m putting a new case on our 360 so that it will have a crystal clear casing, custom LEDs hotwired to the PSU, a see-through disk drive and the Whisper fans will be lit with blue LEDs- it’s going to be epic- look out for a Modding update coming soon! Will be taking step-by-step photos of my RROD fix as well 😀

also, I’m making a classic/sweet lolita dress, although my sewing machine (new) has decided that everytime I try to use it, the thread is going to jump out of the needle, and the tension refuses to stay set! it’s really annoying me- I have all the pieces cut for the lining, yet I’m not able to stitch them together! *AGHH* I will finish it though ( I may need to use nan-in-law’s machine) and will post pics asap. (again in step-by-step form)

There’s a lot I have to get done soon- I’m doing well with getting Naomi’s bike, were I not too busy doing other things, I’d have made enough points by now, but I’m almost there 😀 should get here by her birthday! I’m planning to get loads of balloons and banners and go all-out at her party, hopefully she’ll have fun ^_^

but now, to bed. Will post tomorrow.
Toodles!

 

Muse at Wembley

WERE FUCKING AWESOME!

I had the BEST night of my life \^0^/ Despite us sitting almost right near the back, we had a fantastic view and it was stunning! the stage was set up to look like a building and at the beginning of the concert, they had loads of protesters walking round the stage waving flags around!

We had seating tickets, and spent most of the night on our feet :p
Here’s the set list-

Muse

1. Uprising
2. Supermassive Black Hole
3. New Born
4. Neutron Star Collision
5. Butterflies & Hurricanes
6. Guiding Light
7. Hysteria
8. Nishe
9. United States of Eurasia
10. I Belong to You
11. Feeling Good
12. MK Jam
13. Undisclosed Desires
14. Resistance
15. Starlight
16. Time is Running Out
17. Unnatural Selection

Encore 1

1. Soldier’s Poem
2. Exogenesis: Symphony Part 1
3. Stockholm Syndrome

Encore 2

1. Take A Bow
2. Plug In Baby
3. Knights of Cydonia

Suprisingly, Plug in baby probably got one of the biggest receptions of the night! Yes, it’s a popular song, but compared to Time is running out and Knights of Cydonia, I thought it would have had slightly less! Needless to say, I lept out of my seat SO fast it was unreal!

We did manage to get some photos and videos, but we only had our phones so the quality isn’t that good. Instead, here are some other photos, taken with slightly better equipment 😉

I will try and find some videos later on 😀
I REALLY want to go again, but as they are working on their next album next year, I’m sure that its not going to take too long before they’re touring again! YAAAAY!

 

skeletons and an apology

First, I have to make a big apology. I previously posted something on here without thinking about how it was going to be taken. There’s no excuse for it and I’m very sorry that it hurt you. I really am.

I’m so used to bottling everything up, staying my tongue and just putting up with everything and I now think that I am wrong for doing so. I should learn by now that eventually I explode, and usually aim it at those I care about.
By getting angry, I lashed out and upset someone I care about and I hope that it doesn’t end our friendship..

Right from the offset, as a child, I had to learn to bottle things up. My parents were arguing so often amongst themselves that they didn’t notice anyhting going on around them, and they didn’t pay us any attention.
It would be all too easy that I blame my parents for everything that happened to me, to say that had they paid us any attention, I wouldn’t have gotten into those situations I did. I was always under the opinion that noone cared about me, that nothing I went though would make me care.

The day I came home and told them that I’d been cornered behind the shops, and attacked by 2 older boys, yes. they phoned the police, who did nothing. And then they continued with their lives, telling me that I had imagined it all and that it was all in my head.

Maybe that’s why, when I was 15 and an ex tried to push me too far, I just blocked it out. Maybe that’s why, I have such low self esteem that at uni, when a “friend” walked me home after a night out, when that “friend” stayed the night on my bedroomfloor, I thought nothing of it, and when I woke up to find that “friend” ontop of me, I did nothing. I froze. And then I went on with my life, pretending that nothing had happened, believing that if I just pretended, it never happened, it would be erased from my past..

But its not.

I live everyday, thinking about those instances, wishing I could erase them, just wishing that I could go back to being that innocent little girl, before I turned 8 and my life got ripped apart.

Maybe thats’ why I have such anger issues, or maybe I’m just blowing it all out of proportion, trying to find a reason for my being the way I am.

Hopefully, this will be the last time I make such a mistake and the people I care about won’t get hurt by my doing anymore.

 

insomnia

Hey readers!

Sorry I didn’t post the other day as I said I would, I’ve been suffering from a long bout of insomnia this last week, the hubby’s been working lates and lil’ dandelion has been out of her routine so we’ve all been really run down and feeling the heat.

We’ve had quite a week really, I got a B in my first assignment, have worked 3 more units since then and am on the way to completing the second assignment. I’ve had another mystery shopping assignment, and they’re waiting to get the receipt so they can pay me!!

Only 9 days till muse!! I’m REALLY getting quite excited about it now ^_^ We’re borrowing Mumsy’s car for the day so that we don’t have to worry about trains and coaches, plus we can go up there in the morning and enjoy having a day to ourselves with no toddler to worry about.. and my Gosh do I need it. I love my little girl SO incredibly much but right now she’s being so defiant and won’t do anything I tell her to, just keeps saying no to me all the time, refusing to do as she’s asked and answering back.

It’ll be nice when we get back, we can go back to our regular routine and I’ll be fully de-stressed!
then we have Alan’s cousins’ wedding, then we’re meeting lacuna coil! It’s gonna be brill ^_^

Anyway, right now, I have to get off to bed in a minute, get some decent sleep for a change.
Night all 😀