Falling (alone)

Have I lost the only thing that lit the candle in my heart
Have I missed the best days, the ones which made me smile
Is this darkness deep inside of me been opened up forever
or have I lost my mind again

I feel like I’m falling
(I can’t stop thinking of you)
I don’t know who I am
(Can’t stop feeling for you)
Without you here, I’m all alone
Falling in love with the dark

Lost inside the never-ending, where did I go wrong
Embraced by the cold why did everything dissolve
In the terror that become my dreams
am I losing my mind again?

Won’t stop falling
(Why can’t I stop thinking of you)
Who the hell am I
(If I can’t feel a thing)
Now you’re not here, I’m still alone
falling in love with the dark

And when there’s nothing left but the empty dark
Who’s left to hold the candle inside my heart
When there’s nowhere left to fall
where will I turn, where do I go?

Won’t stop feeling like I’m falling,
Falling in love with the dark
It’s dragging me under, I’m losing my mind
Still all alone, with memories of you

 

Embrace me

Can you tell me why these flowers only bloom at night?
And can you show me the road leading to your heart?
Can you hear the sound of thunder crashing in my head
And can you feel the sting of my tears?

Do you know what it’s like to be so alone
But yet not in solitary, surrounded by the dark?
Do you feel the flow of feeling rushing round inside my veins?
Help me with the feeling, take me in your arms

Take me, Save me, from the sacrament of love
Feel me, embrace me, take me to the dark
Catch me, I’m falling, in love with you once more
Although the feeling never left, I’ve got to know you again

Can you tell me why these stars only shine in the day time?
and can you show me the river, leading to your soul?
Can you hear the gentle sound of rain falling in my heart?
and can you reach out and touch the smiles on my face?

Do you know what it’s like to be so alone,
Yet not feeling lonely, surrounded by light?
Do you feel the flow of emotions, rushing round inside our hearts?
Help me with this feeling, take me in your arms

Take me, Save me, from the sacrament of love
Feel me, embrace me, take me to the dark
Catch me, I’m falling, in love with you once more
And even though I never stopped, I’m loving you again.

This feeling so strong, deep in my heart,
Nothing compares to the light in the dark
The worry inside of me, fading away
Nothing’s as quiet as it seems.

Take me, Save me, from the sacrament of love
Feel me, embrace me, take me to the dark
the stars are shining in the middle of the day,
the flowers, they’re blooming at night-time again
I’m smiling, I can’t stop, help me as I fall

Catch me, Embrace me
Once more

 

Close one world~Open the next

When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it’s not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Preface, p.1

Firstly I suppose I should say hello.
I have just opened this blog as part of the “new” me. I did have a blog over at livejournal, but too many people read that one and I feel that as part of the change, it’s time to change my blog as well.

So, first, a little about me.
My name is Becky (Bex. Kitten, Lacrymosa) and I am 20 years old. Happily engaged, I live with my Fiance Alan and my daughter Naomi (1 yr old)
The name AngelAshe is a union of my nickname (LacrymosaAngel) and my 2nd favourite girl’s name, Ashelia.

I studied at Bournemouth University up until my daughter was born last year, and I’m hoping to do a course in Child day care and then specialising in Child Psychology starting next year.

I have been doing a lot of reading lately, in particular, Twilight by Stephanie Mayer. It has been the only book that I have read cover to cover in about 4 hours. It completely absorbed me. The way it was written was so detailed, so precise that I could feel all the emotions Bella would feel. It actually convinced me that I was falling in love with edward. It made me feel like a giddy school girl again.

I was stunned by the unexpected electricity that flowed through me, amazed that it was possible to be more aware of him than I already was. A crazy impulse to reach over and touch him, to stroke his perfect face just once in the darkness, nearly overwhelmed me.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 11, p.219

I suppose the main reason I fell in love with this book is possibly because reading it made me feel the same as I had done when I first met Alan. All the warmth, the sparkle and all the excitement of a new relationship.. who’d have thought that you would feel it all just by reading a book!
Clearly, only someone who has truely been in love could write with such raw emotion.

I hope that soon, I may continue with my books. I hope oneday I can be as accomplished a writer as Stephanie herself is.

But for now, I must say goodnight. It’s been a long hard week and I’m tired.

I hope that posting on this blog will be more frequent than my other has been, and I will post chapters as I write them.

Thank you all for reading, I hope to hear from you all soon